Instead of becoming a statistic I ordered
a vintage sweater online. I thought it would fit
but instead it made me feel like a statistic.
I couldn't tell which of us was too small, which
also made me feel like a statistic.
It felt like some metaphor too funny to be true:
after dressing my body up as a person
I called myself, I ordered women's clothes
just to end up stuck in tight, too close to myself,
which made me feel like a statistic.
I thought it would fit. I had no reason not to.
A simple mistake which cost me eight dollars
and fifty-two cents.

Lilia Marie Ellis is a trans woman poet from Houston,
Texas. Her work has previously appeared in publications
including For Women Who Roar, Levee, and Sonder.
Follow her on Twitter @LiliaMarieEllis